Who are you if you cant remember who you are？ 如果你不记得你是谁 那么你是谁
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斯图尔特
Crashing Hills Memory Center 撞山记忆中心
Yeah lm here to see a patient in the Alzheimers ward 我来探望一位老年痴呆症患者的
Your e a visitor ？Yes 你是来探视的吗 对
lm sorry but our Solos are nt allowed visitors 抱歉 但是我们的独处者不允许被探视
Yeah lk now ljust... 我知道 我只是...
It rave led a long way 我跋涉了很远才到这
They re meant to stay as Solos 他们在这里就是要独处
Yeah l know the rules 是的，我知道规矩
Can you make an exception？ 你能破个例吗
Just this once？ 就这一次
Are you Stuart Wal do Thompson？ 你是斯图尔特.沃尔多.汤普森吗
Yes 是的
Are you Clark Kent？ 你是超人克拉克·肯特吗？
Yes 是的
Are you Mickey Mouse？ 你是米老鼠吗
Yes 是的
Hello Stuart 你好 斯图尔特
Install stem cells directly into the blood stream 将干细胞直接植入血液
Memory regeneration should occur within four to five minutest 记忆重建应该在4到5分钟内产生
This is gonna hurt 这会很疼
Rightfully so 理所应当
Okay 可以了
Phase one... 第一阶段...
base memory 基准记忆
Okay 好了
Do you hear me Stuart？ 你能听见我说话吗 斯图尔特
Fuck 靠
Okay 好吧
Look at that light 看着那光
What color is that？ 那是什么颜色的
Green 绿色
Its green isntit？ 它是绿色的 对吧
Green 绿色
Yeah Not blues not yellow 不是蓝色 不是黄色
not red not white 不是红的 不是白的
Thats green 那是绿色的
Thats right Green 没错 绿色
Green like grass 如草地般的绿色
Green like trees leaves 如树木 叶子般的绿色...
salamanders 还有蝾螈也是
Keep going 继续说
Green beans alligators... 青豆 短吻鳄...
Oh green beans llove green beans 对了 青豆 我爱吃青豆
Yeah 对
And what else is green？ 还有什么是绿色的
Green like peas and pickles 绿色的还有豌豆和酸黄瓜
and... and... 还有... 还有...
parakeets 长尾小鹦鹉
The Incredible Hulk 绿巨人
The Grinch...the Grin ch who stole Christmas 格林奇...偷走圣诞节的圣诞怪杰格林奇
Yeah 没错
Four leaf clovers 四叶草
praying mantis 螳螂
the Emerald City 翡翠城
Kermit the fuckin frog 该死的科米青蛙
Its not easy being green 当一个绿色的生物并不容易
Thats good Stuart really good 做的好 斯图尔特 真的很好棒
Now tell me where are we huh？ 告诉我 我们在哪里
Whats this place called？ 这个地方叫什么
This isa uh... 这是一个...
l know you can remember 我知道你能记起来
Beach This is a beach！ 海滩 这是个海滩
Thats right Yeah were on a beach 没错 对 我们在海滩上
All this shit here is sand 眼前这些玩意是沙子
just sand 就是沙子
And that？ 还有那个
Thats the sea huh？ 那是大海 对吧
Thats right Not a river not a pond 没错 不是河 也不是池塘
not a lake not a puddle... 不是湖 也不是水坑...
the sea 是大海
Dont stop now 别停下来
The waves 海浪
the waves crashing 海浪在拍打岸边
Crashing like tim pan i drums in Beethovens Sixth 声音就像贝多芬第六交响曲中的定香鼓一样
like ...like...like fireworks on the Fourth of July 像...像...像节日的焰火
Twenty percent Your e doing so well Stuart 20%你做的很棒 斯图尔特
Look at me Look at me man 看我 看我 伙计
I can amble 我可以走了
lcan...My muscles remembers 我可以...我还有肌肉记忆
My bones reacquaint 我的骨头重新熟悉这感觉了
Look 你看
I can dance 我还会跳舞
Soft shoe tap jazz 软鞋舞 踢踏舞 爵士
Macarena Electric Slide 拉丁 滑步
Hey watch 嘿 看着
Watch me quick 快看我
Ohs yeah Watch me Na e Nae 没错 我会内内舞
Ican sing 是我会唱歌
Oh l love to sing always have 我爱唱歌 一直都爱
Wise men say 智者有言
Only fools rush in 只有愚者为爱所困
For once in my life l have someone who needs me 在我生命中 曾经也被需要过
l miss the old Kanye 我怀念原来的坎耶
Straight from the go Kanye 直来直往的坎耶
Chop up the soul Kanye 显露灵魂的坎耶
Set on his goals Kanye 目标明确的坎耶
Ah yeah 是啊
Yeah 是的
The dope jams 沉迷毒瘾
the lit bangers 醉生梦死
1 know again 我又想起了
And 1 know... 而且我知道...
that l know 我想起来了
But l dont know you 但是我不认识你
TI IR IG No？ 不认识吗
Why are you doing this ？ 你为什么要这么做
Why are you doing this for me？ 你为什么要为我这么做
Im from the National Health Service 我就职于国家卫生署
NHs ？ Well if you think your e going to pay for this 国家卫生署 如果 你想着要用我的养老金
with my pension you gotta another thing coming 来干这个 你就有麻烦了
Its covered Stuart Memory regeneration is universal 可以报销 斯图尔特 记忆重建是一般项目
Take stem cells 取出干细胞
inject them into you and 在注射进你的身体里
regenerates total brain function 再生整个大脑的功能
and soon after recovers all of your memories 很快就能恢复你的全部记忆
My memories？ 我的记忆吗
And its free？ 还是免费的
Its free 是免费的
As it should be 理应如此
Ik now at first that they were that they were selling 一开始我知道他们有这种收费的
this cure for Alzheimers 治疗老年痴呆症的方法
Yeah 是的
But l always said ought to be a human right 但是我总是说 着应该属于人权
Its awful in there... 大脑里那种...
that dem ented fog of dementia 疯狂的痴呆迷雾太可怕了
In there its like being buried alive 就像被活埋了一样
or cast in amber but... 或是被封进了琥珀里 但是...
still put tering inside 你的内心世界还活着
You want to roar You wish to scream 你想大喊大叫
but screams and ro ars are all banned in that land 但是那种大喊大叫 一点都传不到外面
No crying 没有哭喊
no mercy 没有怜悯
No wishes or prayers 没有许愿 没有祈祷
You cry out for your mother or your father 你大声呼唤你的父母
or your God 或是上帝
But theyre all gone too 但是他们全都不在了
Theyve all left in the fog 他们都被留在了雾中
And the terror and the fury arises in your 随后你内心升起某种恐惧和愤怒
l exist！ 我存在
You wanna shout J exist 你想大喊我存在
l exist！ 我存在
But you surely do not 但你当然不会喊出来
Not in this land 起码不会在这里喊出来
But then... 但是...
you came 你来了
You burned off all the fog 你驱散了所有的雾气
And l can remember again 于是我又能想起来了
Im alive my son 我还活着 孩子
And your e to blame 这都怪你
Phase one is complete 第一阶段完成了
Brain regeneration is at 50% 大脑再生进程已完成了一半
Now comes the rest Phase two 接下来是第二阶段
Personal memory and recovery 个人记忆恢复
Hang on tight 坚持住
What do you remember？ 你想起了什么
My wifes farts at night 我老婆会在夜里放屁
Code Red Code Blue 红色警报 蓝色警报
Floating in my best friend Nias pool 在我最好的朋友妮娅家的泳池里漂浮着
Looking up at the clouds 抬头看天上的云朵
Watching 13 Going on 30 观看《女孩梦三十》
Seeing Ming Chong in the supermarket 在超市里见到了陈明
Flying down that blue slide into Moms arms 飞下蓝色的滑梯 投入妈妈的怀抱
Blue slide 蓝色滑梯
Where was that 在哪玩滑梯
In the park... 在公园里...
with the big trees and a duck pond 那里有高大的树木和一个鸭子池塘
The woman 那个女人
the mother... 那个妈妈...
What does she look like？ 她长得什么样
Its all l can remember 我只能记起这么多
It cant be everything 肯定不止这么多
Well yeah yeah thats all there is 没错 我想起来的只有这么多
Thats all the memories？ 这是你所有的记忆吗
Afraid so 恐怕是的
Are you sure？ 你确定吗
Of course lm sure 我当然确定
l already said lm sure 我已经说了 我确定了
Thats all there is 只有这么多
Thats all l can remember okay？ 我能想起来的只有这么多 好吗
Do you remember me Stuart？ 你还记得我吗 斯图亚特
lm afraid weve just met 恐怕我们才刚认识
What What is this？ 这...这是什么意思
ls this some kind of NHS thing huh？ 这是国家卫生署的什么项目吗
Like a shake down of a poor Alzheimers patients 想把某个可怜的老年痴呆患者的养老金
pension fund？ Were you ever diagnosed？ 全部榨干吗 你被确诊过吗
Of course 当然
Alzheimers patients exhibit identical symptoms 老年痴呆患者与老年记忆成瘾者的
to aging memory addicts 症状一样
If you install too many rec ol lec tions 如果你在大脑中储存过多回忆
over time your neurons were destroyed 日积月累 你的神经系统就会损伤
So you know what l think Stuart？ 你知道我怎么想吗 斯图亚特
That after years of stealing memories 这样年复一年的窃取记忆
your brain was dying not from Alzheimers 你的大脑渐渐死亡 不是因为老年痴呆
but from your addiction 而是因为你对记忆成瘾
Son you...you... 孩子 你...
you must have the wrong man 一定找错人了
Ik now who you are 我知道你是谁
Case of mistaken identity 一定是弄错身份了
l know what you did 我知道你做过什么
Id id nt do anything 我没做过什么
l spent the past 11 years... 我过去的11年里...
trying to find the monster who took the memories of my mom 一直在努力寻找偷走我对于妈妈记忆的坏蛋
who started by hacking into company servers 那坏蛋先是黑进公司服务器
and graduated to violently assaulting people 后来就开始暴力攻击别人
who stuck an extractor 在人们的大脑里
right into their fucking brains 塞进一个提取器
and downloaded the memories 然后下载他们的记忆
Ive long thought about this day。。。 我一直想着这一天...
about the day l would find the man who took her from me 在这一天 我会找到那个在医院大厅的自动贩卖机旁边
in that hospital hall by the vending machine 把妈妈从我记忆中带走的人
who stripped that little boy 他把那个小男孩
of every memory of the mom he just lost 有关刚过世的妈妈所有记忆都抢走了
What do you want？ 你想要什么
What do l want？ 我想要什么
Do you know what my earliest memory is？ 你知道我最早的记忆是什么吗
A dark shadow... 一个伸出手想抱我的...
reaching out to me 暗影
I cant see her face... 我看不见她的脸...
or her body Shesa glitch a blur 或身体 她是一团模糊的脉冲信号
Pixelated buffering 像素化 延迟
A dark fog 一团黑雾
I cant even see her 我甚至看不见她
My own mother and l cant even see her 她是我妈妈 我却看不见她
And 1cant hear her 我也听不见
Nota laugh or a cry... 听不到她的哭和笑...
ora ... 或是...
l love you sweetheart 一句 我爱你 宝贝
I cant even miss her Stuart 我甚至都没有办法想她 斯图尔特
My own mother and l cant even miss her 我没法想念自己的妈妈
And the worst part of all？ 最糟的是什么呢
ls that the only place she still exists 她只存在于
is in there 这个地方
And its a shit ty feeling you know 这感觉很糟糕
Cause the fucked up thing is 因为最讨厌的事就是
now l need you 我现在需要你
So what do l want Stuart？ 你问我想要什么 斯图尔特
l want whats mine 我想要回我自己的东西
lw ant you to give me back what you took from me 我一想让你把从我这拿走的东西还给我
l want her 我想要她
l 我
cant 做不到
You give me her 你把她还给我
and l wont tell the authorities about you 我就不会向当局举报你
l wont bring you in You can live out your days here 我不会把你交出去 你可以在这里度过余生
How do l know ？ 我怎么知道
How can l know you 1l hold up your end ？ 我怎么知道你会信守承诺呢
What choice do you have？ 你有还有别的选择吗
Oh swell 好吧
Blue 蓝色
Blue eyes 蓝色的眼睛
She had blue eyes 她有一双蓝色的眼睛
Blue how？ 什么样的蓝色
Blue like the Mediterranean at twilight 蓝的像黄昏时的地中海
Blue like a star lings feathers 蓝的想欧掠鸟的羽毛
Blue like an aster flower just moments after bloom 蓝的像刚绽开的紫菀花
She had blue eyes 她有双蓝色的眼睛
And clumps of mascara 还有结块的睫毛膏
Always clumps 总是结块
And when she looked at you... 当她注视你时...
when she looked at you my God 当她注视你时 天啊
her eyes opened wides Really ？ 她的眼睛睁的大大的 真的吗
Yeah Right 真的
And she cooed when she saw you 她看见你的时候会低语一声
In voluntarily she cooed when you walked into her room 你走进她房间的时候 她也会不由自主的低语一声
She would gasp... 她会惊讶的倒吸一口气...
as if she thought how... 仿佛在想。。。
how could this boy be so perfect？ 这个男孩怎么会如此完美
How could 1 have made such a beautiful kid ？ 我怎么会生出这么漂亮的孩子
How could he be mine？ 他怎么会是我的孩子
Shed gas p when she saw me？ 她见到我的时候倒吸一口气了吗
Yeah 是的
And she smelled like lavender 她闻起来像薰衣草一样
It was the deter gen t she used 是她用的洗衣液的味道
lve always loved the smell of lavenders 我一直都喜欢薰衣草的香味
She would do this thing 她还会这么做的
Whenever she saw me... 她每次看见我...
you... 应该是你...
in the morning 在早上的时候
she would hold out her hand as if for a hands ha ke 她会伸出她的手，像要握手一样
like z like we were business partners 就像....我们是商业伙伴一样
And she would say 她会说
Nice to make your acquaintance Mr Man 很高兴认识你 这位先生
And shed take you to the playground every day 她会每天带你倒游乐场
to feed the ducks and play 喂鸭子 玩耍
And there was this...Slide 还有那个...滑梯
Yeah 是的
Big blue slide 蓝色的大滑梯
It was like your Everest 对你来说 像珠穆朗玛峰一样
You saw her growing small 你看着她越来越小
And then you sli d down... 然后你滑了下去...
Ran into her arms? 冲进了她的怀抱吗
And she held you tight 她紧紧抱着你
l dont know what came over her that day ... 我不知道那天她想到了什么...
but her eyes were watery 但她的眼睛里有泪水
and her little nose... 她的小鼻子...
Her nose？ What... Yeah 她的鼻子 怎么... 是的
Like a button Small 像一个按钮 小小的
red 红红的
And she said 她说
j will always catch you Otto 我会永远都接着你的 奥托
l will never let you fall 我不会让你摔着的
She sounds lovely 她听起来真可爱
She was 她就是这样
She really was 她确实如此
And so were you 你也是
A lovely boy 一个可爱的男孩
354174 Why？ 为什么
Why d you take those memories from that little boy 你为什么要在那医院的大厅里
in that hospital hall who just lost his mom ？ 夺走刚失去母亲的小男孩的记忆
I had a child once 我原来有个孩子
A beautiful boy 一个漂亮的男孩
During the Stay Le l began to think him a nuisance 在居家的时候 我开始觉得他是个麻烦
An annoyance 令人烦恼
An interruption to the screens that l loved 打扰了我看我爱的影视
to the devices l cher ished 玩我珍爱的电子设备
I made excuses not to play with him 我找借口不跟他玩耍
Not to help him with his school 不帮助他学习
Not to show him the stars or... 不陪他看星星...
tuck him into bed at night 晚上也不哄他上床睡觉
And then one day... 后然后有一天...
One day he got sick 有一天 他生病了
Virus took him in its arms... 病毒抓住了他...
and he ai led and gl itc he d and 他难受 不舒服
beg ged for breath 呼吸都艰难
until he was gone 一直到他走了
And the light left my world 我的世界从此没有光了
And when he passed 当他走后
l roamed the streets for days 我在街上游荡了好几天
wishing to disappear 希望自己能消失
Wishing to die 希望能死掉
Wishing to leave on a rocket ship or。。。 希望能坐火箭飞船离开 或者。。。
stay locked in my Stay or... 关在我的我的居家里 或者...
travel to the future or... 旅行到未来 或者...
or be punished forever 受到永久的惩罚
Wishing 1 had seen my boy for what he was 真希望我见过我儿子真实的样子
Which was the whole world 他就是我的全世界
l couldntbear the memories of him 我无不能承受忍关于他的记忆
So l spiraled and tumbled and... 所以我扭曲 我打滚...
Thats when l started 然后我开始了
Stealing Thieving 偷窃
I needed to stop my heart from this god awful bleeding 我需要让我的心停止痛苦的流血
l stole the other memories to rid myself of my own 我偷了其他人的记忆 来让我摆脱我自己的
1 stole from them 我偷了他们的
From hundreds of victims 上千个受害者
From you 包括你
A sweet boy just like my own 一个爱的男孩 像我的儿子一样
And lj us t needed to remember a boys love for his parents 我只需要记住一个男孩对他父母的爱
so that l could make myself believe 这样我就能让我自己相信
this is what my boy must have felt about me 我儿子如果还在 对我也是这样的感情
FUR SET MN Z So l took your memories 。。。 所以我拿走了你的记忆....
and l watched every one 我看了每一段记忆
over and over again 一遍又一遍地看
Sixty years of em 看了60年
Of you 你的
Her 她的
And together 你们大家的
But as the dementia progressed and the... 但随着痴呆症的病情发展
fog over took and the memories grew dim 雾蒙了上来 记忆渐渐模糊
and l could see only dark shadows 在本该出现人的地方
where people should be 我只能看见黑色的影子
I realize... 我意识到...
the worst truth of all 最可怕的真相
This is what my boy must have felt 我的儿子看着我
when he looked at me 肯定就是这种感觉
A glitching father whose face he hardly saw 一个时隐时现的父亲 脸庞看不清
Whose embrace 他的拥抱
he never know 永远摸知道
Whose love 他的爱
Whose love he never felt 他的爱也永远都感受不到
l see now that lv e committed the same crime twice 我现在明白我犯了俩次相同的罪
To you 对你
and to him 也对他
Robbing a child of his parent 抢走一个孩子关于他父母的记忆
Tell me about that last day 告诉我最后一天是怎么样的
My last day with her 我和她在一起的最后一天
Son 孩子
Tell me l wanna know 告诉我 我想知道
It was cold 那天很冷
You had on a sweater 你穿着毛衣
and you went in to see hers 走进去看她
And she was lying in bed 她躺在床上
Balds pale 没有头发 脸很苍白
Her nose was 她的鼻子
Red and small like a button 像一个按钮 一样红红的 小小的
You cre pt toward her and 你轻轻走向她
as soon as she saw you 她一看到你
Her blue eyes opened wide 她蓝色的眼睛就睁得大大的
Her eyelashes caked with mas cara 她的睫毛上有结块的睫毛膏
wide like this 睁得像这么大
She reached out her hand to you 她向你伸出了手
To shake it as if we were business partners？ 像我们是商业伙伴一样握手吗
Which in a way we were her and me 就像从前一样 她和我确实是的
And she said 然后她说
Pleasure to make your acquaint an ce Mr Man 很高兴认识你 这位先生
Exactly so 真是如此
And she held you tight 然后她紧紧抱住你
Only now it was final 但现在是最后一次了
She smelled of lavender 她闻起来像薰衣草
She smelled great 香香的
She pulled you close 她把你拉近
like that day on the Big blue slide 就像那天在 蓝色的大滑坡上一样
She said shed always be there to catch me 她说她永远接住我
even ifs he was gone 即使她离开了
Thats right 的确
And her breaths grew fainter 接着她的呼吸变得虚弱
She pulled you close 她拉近你
She held you tight 她紧紧抱住你
And she said 然后她说
Tell me what she said 告诉我她说了什么
She said My boy 她说 我的孩子
it has been the privilege of my life to be your mom 做你的母亲是我这辈子最荣幸的事
Im sorry we lv e had such a short visit together 我很抱歉我们在一起的时光那么短暂
And as the years go on 随着时光流逝
these moments together may fade 这些我们在一起的时光可能会消逝
But its okay 但没事
Its okay if you forget me 如果你忘记我 也没事
No 不
its okay if you forget me Otto 如果你忘了我也没事 奥托
Cause you never can 因为你永远都不会的
You are literally made up of me 你基本上就是由我组成的
Im in every fiber every eyelash 我在你的每根纤维 每一个睫毛
and follicle and cell 毛囊和细胞里
like the stars and the sky and the sand and the sea 就像星星与天空 沙滩与大海一样
Ill always be with you 我将一直陪伴你
And you dont need to remember for it to be true 并且你不需要记得 因为这是真的
for l will for you 我会陪伴你
And as you held her close 就在你抱紧她时
you looked at the resp ira tor beside her bed 你看向她床边的呼吸机
the machine that hum med and glowed with a 那台机器嗡嗡响着 并闪着
Green light Yeah 绿光 对的
Until her breaths ceased 直到她的呼吸停止
And she grew still 她不动了
And the green light too brief went out 那道绿灯 很快的灭了
A memory isnt simply a thing you have 一段记忆不单纯是你拥有的一样东西
Its a promise 而是个承诺
Its a vo w to the one you love 对你所爱之人的誓约
Remembering is a search 回忆也是一种找寻
And you found her again son 而你又找到她 孩子
She would be so proud 她一定会十分自豪
lam sorry 我很抱歉
Im so sorry for what lv e taken from your 对不起 我从你那里夺走了这些
For what lv e done 我做的这一切
Its time Stuart 是时候了 斯图尔特
For what？ 什么的时候
I have to take it with me 我得把它带走
The memories ？ 这些记忆吗
The green light？ 绿光吗
Thats right 对的
Oh you you said l said 你...你说... 我说
l would nt tell the authorities about you 我不会和当局告发你
No 不
No no nos nos no no 不 不 不 不 不 不
No no please please 不 不 拜托了 真的拜托了
No dont take them 不，不要拿走
Dont send me back there 不要把我再送回那里
Please 求求你了
I have to Stuart 我不得不 斯图亚特
Please You know ld o 求求你 你知道我没得选
Can l ask just 我可以提一个
one small favor？ 小小的请求吗
You dont deserve a favor 你没有资格提请求
however small 无论多小
You ve hurt so many people 你已经伤害了那么多人了
I know 我知道
But cant you just leave me one... one memory？ 但你能不能给我留下一段...一段记忆
Just one 就一段
Please 求求你了
Which memory？ 哪一段记忆
Of your boy？ 关于你儿子的吗
Those memories are all corrupted lm afraid 恐怕那些记忆都已支离破碎了
So which one？ 所以你要哪一段
I dont know 我不知道
I dont 我不....
Hey Stuart 斯图尔特
Yeah 怎么了
Would you show me what it felt like ？ 你能让我知道那是什么感觉吗
What？ 什么
Her hug 她的拥抱
You know Stuart... 斯图尔特...
I imagine this is what your boy 我想象你的儿子
must have thought your hugs felt like too 对你的拥抱一定也是这种感觉
How about this one Stuart？ 这个怎么样 斯图尔特
How about this memory？ 这段回忆怎么样